'in life there's a time to stand your ground; in death there is a time to walk away.'
-adapted from green street hooligans

i watched confession of pain today and i liked it. although the main plot and budget is rather limited, there are still plenty of unexpected twists that keeps you guessing. at the end of it, it still leaves you a question that makes you ponder about life and death. it's intersting for a show that lasted less than two hours which is rather unusual for shows these days.

i was however supposed to go for a dinner with my rather rich aunt from america, but i couldn't bare the pain to dress up as a higher social class and conduct myself to be one. for i am not and do not wish to be one.

i must wonder why sometimes the world is so messed up with so many problems with race, religon, politics, rights, laws, money, power etc. to be in control and to not be controlled. violence seems to be part of nature (like we don't have enough) and although there are kind little souls out there, they are often mistreated.

i do not deny wanting my little world occasionally with scripts for everyone to read and according to my lines. my sane world (insane to others of course) with characters that seemed like the most perfect people in the world. of course this is for my own musing and for nothing else.
occasionally i do block out my surroundings just to let this happen. later i'll be pulled back to the world of life again with sounds that are miserable and distracting. yet again, when i live on with it, i come to appreciate life more than anything i ever felt.

my passion for film is blooming. i have come to a conclusion that for me film is a passion enjoying and wanting people to enjoy watching movies. i came to a happy realization that it is not about fame nor fortune but providing one with enjoyment and something to learn about it. film is an art and therefore, i would like people to appreciate it. support from friends and family is a definite boost and have inspired me to create many story lines for an inspirational film.

perhaps a new revoultion of film, cinema is coming soon and if it does, i can hardly wait.

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Deb: hahas, something i planning to start on once i get my camera = random shooting first. =x